x'mas practice

Am feeling slightly exhilarated after today's orch prac... coz there's finally some element of music! There has been improvements in the 'hunting' section and I just hope they can remember that feel... though i wonder if i made the right choice to request for a tempo increment, so as to stir up the excitement in them, coz it really do sound better at a faster pace... i just hope that i can make those runs and octave leaps safely this sun... i guess i'm just being adventurous.. coz i also attempted a free tempo effect against the strict tempo of the orch at one section... haha! thought it sounds ok actually

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What i still worry most are the slow sections, coz the melody is just too lovely that it actually became a considerable challenge to enliven it. I always feel that things that sound nice and easily memorable on first hearing are the ones to get sick of very fast... haha so how to sustain that interest and give it a twist in subsequent recurrence and variations? i'm still thinking... ahh! Plus my 'lun' always so unsecure.. lucky my teacher is overseas, else i think she might just sigh and shake her head... hahaha! Oh i just discovered my name on newspaper last thur.. but am slightly disappointed why they didnt print my teacher's name like they did for the rest.. they must have forgot i think... haha the only one without history also.. actually it's less stress in this sense also, coz if i dont play well, i wont tarnish the reputation of others. Anyway my mentality is to enjoy myself only and treat it as a learning opportunity.. so just take it easy and dont hope for too much

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But i wonder what i should do if the melodic instruments that outline the melody i play went off in tempo, resulting in clashes coz the same melody would sound at diff time... should i vary my tempo accordingly even if it means skipping beats? ot shld i continue as if nothing happens and let the conductor handle? hmm.. any ideas?