"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent."
or as a chinese saying goes "言语终止的地方是音乐".

Some things are just so difficult to be put across verbally to another, due to numerous factors that can be complex or accompanied by conflicting emotions/ uncertainties... well personally i do experience this kind of internal struggle and a subtle way to reveal them is through music playing or writting i think. There was once when i felt i had so many things to say, the stress, frustration, poignance .. that's just diff to be expressed verbally.. and i was having inst. lesson.. so when i played the piece i thought of nothing, except in connecting my feelings with the music. At one part i felt tears welling up in my eyes, ya was trying hard not to show it extrinsically. That was one of my best rendition of the piece and i could tell my teacher was moved from her compliments.. no criticisms :) So i think music playing is where i find solace.. although i am not usually emo rich.. such build up are quite rare
recently, i seemed to have liked things i usually hated doing (i dont know why) and sometimes sense things at a deeper level. Light-hearted pieces are now a past... used to also like playing technical pieces (notice i avoided virtuosic), but right now what i enjoy most are slow and expressive pieces though my playing's still not very cantabile at times, i'm slowly getting better!

i've finally.. after months managed to gain 1kg! yeah that's something to feel great about. who says it's tough to slim down?
gaining weight can be relatively even tougher.. for ppl like me